perfect pregnancy...i wish

GOOD NEWS

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 21:26:34 +0200

HI all

well its been a long time since i last posted and i am pleased to say that things are on the up,

Baby is doing well after having lots of complications whihc ended in a trip to hospital in the middle of the night, but i saw it wriggling away on the scan, and cant wait till October when i have a close up scan and i will be able to find out if its the girl i so want, not that i will be upset with a boy as long as its healthy and everything goes ok, i am not really bothered what sex it is, but i do long for a little girl so i can pass on my curly hair to it, lol

men wise, i am not really sure what is happening, i actually think i might be on the move forward and i have a new guy in sight, not sure how things will pan out, but right now my main priority is the baby.

If the current love of my life can prove that he is 100% faithful and willing to get involoved in things and actually move off his back side and satart helping then, who knows we could e happy for many years to come....

I will keep you posted.

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Having fun

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 18:35:09 +0200

Hi all

Well its another chapter in my life, my ex wants me back oh god sometimes how good is it to go back to old comforts, and yet how dangerous could it be!!!!

NOt least the fact that i am having my current parnters baby, would my ex bring this baby up as his own? Do i want to go back to him knowing that we would lead seperate lives.. but the love and trust i crave he would provide.

basically i have three options

1. Stay with the current love of my life and hope that he now realises i will put up with any shit.

2. Go back to my ex and live a happy contented but boring life

or 3. Split up with S. sell the house move back to the area i used to live so i am closer to my family and bring up my child alone.

I wish i had a crystal ball so i knew which path to take..

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Hello and Welcome (background to me)

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 18:29:09 +0200

Hi all,

Well i have decided to complete a blog about my life during pregnancy after events occured in my personal life, that i really didnt want to discuss with my closest friends or family but really needed to get them off my chest...

Let me introduce myself i'm emma and 24 years old i am currenlty 11 weeks pregnant and have had terrible sickness all day and all night since 4 weeks, hopefully it will stop soon.

I split up with a loving partner of 6 years in November last year after realising that we both wanted different things from life, the split was fairly hard for both of us but it was definalty the right thing to do. i spent a coupke of weeks feeling very low and upset but life goes on, so i picked myslef up and moved on I met a guy who works for the same company as i do, over the christmas period, but nothing actually happended between us till february when we went on our first date.

For a few weeks i continued to see this guy who i will name as S, despite getting on so well with him his ex girlfriend played a huge part in his life and i couldnt understand why he would still jump if she called often leaving me in his bed, while going to see her, I didnt put up with this for very long, and it soon came out via her Myspace that basically S had still be sleeping with her for at least 6 weeks, I dont know why i decided to give him anotehr chance perhaps it was beacuse i had been back to my ex for sex during this period and knew how hard it was to break away from a long term relationship. However i gave him the benefit of the doubt ad within a month we move into a new house together.

It wasnt long before i found out that he was chatting to other girls in sex rooms and watching sex videos online, we had a huge row and he promised me that he would stop and he was sorry, again i forgave him and then a couple of months later i find out i am pregnant.. A HUGE shock, but i am very maternal and love kids so in a way i was very pleased. We decided to buy our own house and moved into a brand new house, then last Thursday i dont know what made me do it, but i picked up his phone and read some of his text messages, things from other girls saying i want to suck your cock... I am fingering myself at the thoguht of you, etc etc.

I had reached the end of my tether and told him it was finsihed for good and that i would never trust him, after i had calmed myslef down and a lot of pleading from S i began to think about how happy i am with him and how much i want our baby to be loved, and whilst he may be chatting to oher girls i truly believe he would never actually cheat on me.

So he is on one last chance... We seem to have gone through so much in a short space of time, but i do know one thing I love him and i beleive he loves me, we all make mistakes only his are huge, however he knows now one little error and thats it for good.

On the pregnancy front we are both very happy and have started planning for the future... who knows what will happen only time will tell...

I hope that i will be posting happy thoughts soon, and i hope that this was a big enough shock to him. I just want someone who i can trust and be happy with.. i know i am nor perfect but is that too much to ask for
x

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